I guess I’m on the four posts a year trend…if that. That means I only have three more to go though.
Just wanted to share something that brought me great peace. Trust me, I’m not going to get all preachy, but I am a minister so it is allowed.
See. Here’s proof.
I’ve been pretty open about coping with the death of my grandmother. The holidays were very difficult and her absence left me feeling like I simply went through the motions, but didn’t even come close to enjoying them.
On New Year’s Eve, I had the honor of officiating my first marriage, and it just happened to involve two of the most wonderful people I know. Grandma had been an officiant since 1992. Her very first event at the Tea Room was a wedding. I wanted to get ordained in an attempt at keeping her alive. I thought it would keep her close to me and would bring her to others as well. I re-worked her ceremony only slightly, adding my own vows and making it personal to the couple. Her words are full of soul and spirituality. Her words have power. They make sense. The universe, the energy, the elements…God. It is beautiful.
On Christmas Eve I went to the cemetery. I know that she isn’t really there, and I do talk to her all the time, but I needed to be next to her, to have it tangible. I asked her to help me. I told her I wanted to make her proud.
Just before the ceremony, I felt a complete sense of calm. I stood looking at two of my friends who have a deep, real love and I could feel every single word that I spoke. The meaning, the importance of what I was doing and the love that the two of them felt carried me through in what felt like a dream.
As I was congratulating the couple after the ceremony, the groom said that my grandma was there the whole time. I thought he was referring to her energy, and I agreed that I knew she was there. He said no, that she was literally there. When I started talking about the element – air, during the ceremony, he said a gust of wind blew around us and he knew it was her.
I have been given a gift. I have the chance to keep the connection alive. I feel such a sense of peace knowing that energy can never be destroyed, it simply manifests itself in different ways. Her energy is profound.
My resolution is to be more aware of the energy around me, and to let it comfort me and bring me peace.
Happy New Year.