Kade gave me my first Mama injury today. We were happily playing with his new pirate ship, given to him by the Easter Bunny – and quite possibly his favorite toy ever, when out of the blue he hurls the cannon ball at my eye. It hurt and I immediately tear up. I move my hand from over my eye and he throws a piece of toy food directly at the bridge of my nose, which hurt even worse and actually sent the tears streaming down my face. Meanwhile, he is laughing the entire time. Needless to say, he got sent to the time out step, but I don’t think he realized how much he hurt me. I think what hurt the most was the fact that he didn’t care that he hurt me. Maybe he just wanted to see what kind of reaction he would get, but I really hope he doesn’t keep this behavior up. I think he was totally burnt out from the holiday weekend. He had a blast playing with his cousins and ruling my parents roost.

On another note, I got the chance to reconnect with a dear friend over the weekend and see her beautiful baby girl for the first time. She’s two months old and it made me so anxious to have my baby girl in my arms. That sweet baby scent, those tiny toes, and the way they just melt into your arms- it all makes the next 20 weeks seem like they can’t go fast enough. It also made me realize how much motherhood changes you. I noticed that my friend had changed. She was so calm and genuinely happy, not that she wasn’t always that way, but it was different – there was this sense of peace and confidence that she gave off. I truly believe she was meant to be a mother.

Now if only I could manage to stay calm and at peace amidst the objects being thrown at my head…