This has been an up and down week, but even so – there are a lot of things to be thankful for.

I am thankful for my wonderful parents who drove in from Sandusky last night to pick Kade and the dogs up for a few days. They are keeping him busy for us today and tomorrow so I can get things ready for Liv. They are also taking care of our dogs so I don’t have to worry about them either – God bless my parents. Kyle and I will be in Sandusky Saturday morning for his cousin’s wedding so it gives me a nice break, but not too long. I love you both very much and I will never be able to fully thank you for all you do.

I am thankful that my MIL isn’t feeling anymore pain from her mouth sores, but the morphine they have her on is definitely taking it’s toll on her so I hope that things turn around for her quickly. She is such a fighter and the first week of chemo went so smoothly that it’s tough to see her suffering now with nausea, weakness and pain but as her counts come up, so will her spirit.

I am thankful for the last few weeks (3 max – YIKES) that I have to spend with Kade before Liv is born. I am having a very difficult time coming to terms with the fact that he will no longer be my only focus and the center of my life. I have little confidence in my ability to share my love between two children, and I know that everyone says it just happens and the love just multiplies, but I am still scared that Kade will feel left out and replaced. He is my everything and I have spent every hour of every day of his 2 years devoted to him. I find myself just wanting to hold him and cuddle him all day and I wish there was some way to explain to him that Mama and Daddy love him so much that we wanted to create another child to share in that love too, but he’s too young to understand so I just have to take a deep breath and enjoy my baby before my new baby arrives…

I am thankful that my FIL watched Kade on Monday during my ridiculously long OB visit, which lasted almost 3 hours. There is no way that Kade would have behaved that long, heck – I was getting pretty agitated myself. I know that he was anxious to get up to the hospital to see Cindy, but he really helped me out and I appreciate it. Kade got to have some quality Papa time, and I got to have my first internal exam (and all us women know exactly how exciting that is – OUCH).

I am thankful that we have air conditioning because I’d be one miserable pregnant woman if we didn’t, but at least now I know what it feels like to be in hell so I’ll be much better behaved from now on…