I’ve started reading this in order to gain some control around here because there are days (like today) when it feels like everything around me is unraveling. Kade can be a challenge, and it can be darn near impossible to get through to him when he’s spiraling into one of his fits, so I find myself yelling and then feeling guilty and inadequate and out of control…it sucks.

I must admit that my mood has been less than desirable due to my lingering cold and not being able to get away and run. I’m actually looking forward to piling on the layers at 5 tomorrow morning to meet Sarah in the sub-30 degree weather for one of our old school runs…reminiscent of those days when we literally dodged snowplows while trying to see between our frozen eyelashes. I was shocked to see the snowflakes falling today, but I’m also looking forward to the winter training season. I love sweating when everything around you is freezing, the soft respite the snow provides to your aching knees, plodding through three straight months of ice and snow to find that when it all finally melts, you can run…fast. There’s nothing like a spring marathon to make those long, cold, dreary days seem a little shorter. I have a friend who will be training for Boston and another training for the Flying Pig, and I need to figure out what my next goal will be.

I’m just hoping that my run tomorrow will help clear my head and give me the boost I need to handle the everyday stress of my job. Sometimes I think that med school would have been a lot easier than this…