Thanks to everyone for your comments on my recent post. With all the sick going around here, I haven’t been able to look into any of your suggestions, but that’s on my list this week so I’ll keep you posted. An upside is that the office finally faxed my script on Thursday afternoon, but it takes 24-48 days to get into Medtronic’s system so hopefully the order goes through and ships out Monday. Apparently, they got the ball rolling on hooking me up with a CGMS too…but I’m not getting my hopes up.

The kids are still sick. Kade was close to a trip to the emergency room on Thursday. He was pretty dehydrated after the day’s events so I took him to the doctor, who told us that if we had waited an hour or so longer he would have been admitted. I picked up some rectal tylenol (fun), Zofran (anti-nausea med used for cancer patients), and pedialyte popsicles. The Zofran seemed to work instantly and Kade snapped back into consciousness for the first time that day. He thought it was the tylenol that did it, and he called the medicine magic. He wanted to avoid going to the bathroom because he didn’t want the medicine to come out. It was short lived, though. He woke up with a raging fever and diarrhea yesterday, and Liv seemed to be getting worse. She still has diarrhea and just wants to be held. Kade still has a fever, diarrhea, and upset stomach. The girl hasn’t smiled since Monday, and Kade hasn’t moved off the couch since Thursday. They are like zombies.

My mom came up on Thursday afternoon so I could take Kade to the doctor. She hasn’t left. Honestly, I do not know what I would do without her. I was approaching break-down mode and she rescued me from it. She watched the kids while I escaped for a few hours to get my hair done (I was ready to cancel the appointment, but she insisted) and was on watch last night while Kyle and I went to dinner (after spending an entire week housebound…it was necessary for my sanity). This week has been hell for me, but it’s been even worse for my kids and that’s something this mama is having a hard time dealing with.

I had to cancel our rockstar weekend in Cincinnati. I won’t be helping my friend get to the finish line in her marathon on Sunday. My overly-pregnant friend is being induced tonight and is taking us off the list of people to watch her older daughter while she is in the hospital. Our house should have a quarantine sign on it. I ran a total of one day this week. Other things have taken priority.

I feel like I have let my friends down. I feel guilty. I feel like a damn good mom.

The only people I haven’t let down this week are my two children. I have spent (nearly) every hour of every day holding them close, calming their fears, cleaning them up, and hopefully making them better. I understand why my mom drops everything to get here. She loves me and she loves my kids. That’s what a mama does…she does whatever it takes to take care of her children. Thanks, mom…you opened my eyes to what that really means.