I can’t believe that I’m blogging. It’s been awhile, but Liv came home sick from school and is sporting a fever so my original plan of heading to the store to get supplies for homemade chili has turned into an afternoon home at the computer.
Things have become overwhelming around here. There’s drama and I really hate drama. There’s life-changing, heart-wrenching family illness and I am not coming to terms with it very well. There’s no time to just be and it’s hard…
I spent yesterday afternoon talking to some first year medical students about living with diabetes, and it inspired me to add even more craziness to the mix. I’m thinking of going back to school with the long-term goal of becoming a diabetes educator. In fact, I’m not just thinking about it…I’m going to do it. Now to only figure out how.
I was also inspired to blog again because I kept telling them how much blogs have helped me in learning about diabetes, managing it, coping with it…yet, I have let my blog go by the wayside. Things have just been so emotional around here lately that I’ve written probably 10 drafts in the last two months and never hit publish. I have so much to say and no idea how to say it.
And running…I am so ashamed of what’s happened with running. I haven’t raced in a year…a freaking year! I haven’t even run in two months. The cold is approaching, so I don’t anticipate that my motivation level will be increasing any time soon, but I trust that the desire will come back at some point (as my pants get tighter, the push becomes greater).
Life just seems to constantly get in the way…
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Erika, I have “thought” of the same things. I would LOVE to become a Diabetes Educator, I’m very proud of you DOING it. That’s AWESOME! I think it will give you so much satisfaction! Please keep me up to date. GOOD LUCK!!!
as always, you’re amazing and continue to inspire. i do miss your blogs but understand. heck, i can’t talk about not blogging, since i’m lucky to post once in a blue moon. just as you stated, i have many things to say, just don’t know how to put it into words.
although i do not have diabetes, this year (especially the past few months) has opened my eyes even greater as to chronic disease/illness, insurance problems, etc. bottom line, it sucks.
as like you, we haven’t raced in forever. i can’t even remember our last race…i’d have to think about it. and actually running, shoot, it’s been at least a month. it saddens me because i want to run. although my motivation isn’t as great as when i started it’s still there, it’s the health problems/pain that’s holding me back.
enough of my venting and woes. just know that although i’m not where you are, there are people out here that understand.
looking forward to what your future in diabetes education holds and sending positive energy your way. hugs to you and the rest of the fam.